:: Dari Dalam Diriku ::

Pergi..

2012-01-11T06:27:00.000-08:00

Innalillah..

pasien BST aku pagi tadi,

dah meninggal dunia tadi..

sangat sedih dan tkilan.

tak sempat nk btol2 ckp ngan dia

heart to heart.

tadi pagi swktu buat anamnesis n

PE dia susah dah nk bcakap.

sbb ada oral thrush.

arap2 dia xterasa atau sakit hati atau marah

swaktu kami check dia pagi tadi.

rasa sgt kesian.

Diagnosis : Acute Myeloid Leukemia M4 + HCAP

dia baru dpt simptom2 dlm masa

1 bulan lalu.

tetiba smua simptom dah ada.

gusi bdarah, oral thrush,

epistaxis, dysphagia, dyspnea,

restlessness, cough.

baru nk buat tracheostomy esok

arahan Dr. Heri.

tp, dah pegi dia tadi.

smoga dia ditempatkan di kalangan orang yang beriman.

ya Allah, ampunilah dosa2 dia ya Allah.

Al-Fatihah..

ku pinang kau dengan bismillah..

2011-12-25T05:26:00.000-08:00

"cinta tak semestinya memiliki"

salam..

kagum dgn org yg xbcinta tp

tiba2 je dah nk kawin.

alhamdulillah.

pkara ni mmbuatkn aku

pcaya dgn bcinta lpas kawin..

aku mmg xbsedia utk nk ada kluarga.

sbb still msih muda n ase xmatang lg..

mungkin 4-5 taun lg..

tpikir jugak kalo nk tros pinang je.

tp, akn diterimakah?

hmm..

niat hati mmg nk je kawin skarang.

tp, xleh..

sbb nk sara family dulu..

mungkin satu hari nnT aku

nk tros pinang bakal isteri aku.

so, skarang dah kene psiapkan diri.

dah kene byk blajar psal tnggungjawab suami..

tp, still ttanya-tanya..

pompuan suke ke kalo ade org yg die

xpnh expect suke die tiba2 pinang die?

hmm..

insyaAllah.. aku cuba..

aku pernah cinta dan aku kecewa.

smua salah aku.

aku mencinta tp aku xubah prangai aku.

she deserve a better person.

i'll pray for her.

mungkin kami mmg xde jodoh..

aku pernah jugak smpat bcinta

lpas aku gagal buat kali ptama.

tp, dia xsama mcm yg ptama.

jd aku tpksa sndiri lg.

hati ni rase sunyi.

tp alhamdulillah msih ada kwn

yg mnyayang..

aku rasa,

aku juz perlu cuba mncinta strangers.

kalo dah suka tros ikat.

ada jodoh tros kawin.

xpyh tnggu lama2..

ya Allah, berikan aku kesempatan buat kali kedua

utk mencinta.

jumaat semalam.

2011-12-23T20:58:00.000-08:00

salam..
smlm ari jumaat.
smlm hari xde pape.
kosong.

lpas tu kul 2.30 aku
tgk wyg sorg2.
nk tgk mandy moore blakon.
crita Swinging with the finkels.
tp crita tu xbes lngsung.
kcewa.

b4 tat p smayang jumaat.

time tu tringat..
wktu dulu umoq dlm
darjah 6,
aku pnh ponteng smayang jumaat
dgn abang aku. HAHA..
aabg aku yg ajak ponteng.
ponteng p kedai runcit yang paling jauh.
pastu mkn gula2.
haha..

lpas tu bpuluh kali round2 dkat masjid nk tau
dah abes belum.
adoi.
teruk betol.

tp bkn dulu ja..
skang pn ada gk lolos.
time bedah la byk lolos.
kalo post jaga ja,
tidoq smpai tlepas.
mudah2han tak tlepas lg..
adoi..

actually nk g jakarta arini..
tp tiba2 rsa mls.
rsa nk duk umah.
brehat sblum msuk ipd..
huhu

aku penat la dgn smua ni..
malas..
tgh bfikir utk gugurkan 1 department kecik..
tp, kene extend plak 6 bulan..
if extend 3minggu xpa gk.. haihh...
nk gugur sbb nk p brehat..
nk bcuti..
penat la koas ni nonstop..
tp, pikiaq balik ksian plak kt mama abah.

so, tpksa la truskn ja..

haihh..

isnin ni cuti!! woot3..
lpas tu grup dgn bes3..
haha,,
except for one la..
but, overall bes la..
hehe
:)
grup ngan paan jugak.
snang skit nk g klas nnT..
:)

doakn aku rajin yer.
nk gk dpt pen emas!hee..

sarjana..

2011-11-29T07:55:00.000-08:00

salam..

lama xtulis blog..

td lpas solat isyak, tgk screen laptop,

ada gambo grad aku.

tiba2 tngiang2 kata2 mama..

mama ckp tahniah..

mama tringin nk tgk atrash pakai jubah..

mama minta maaf xdpt p tgk.

tp mama doa dr jauh..

mama ckp, upload la gambaq cpat2

kt fesbuk.

dah upload dah..hehe..

tp gambaq mama ckp suh pkai white coat n

ltak stetoscope belum lg sbb xde tyme yg nk seswai

lg..hehe..

tp insyaallah nanti..

smlm makngah mniggal..

mama ckp boleh balik.

n aku tau mama sgt sdih

sbb makngah la satu2 kakak yg

mama ada.

dah hampir nk beli tiket

flight klm dari jakarta

dah siap2 smua g cc nak beli

tiba2 tiket habes.

hancur bkecai.

check awal ade.

then, check skali lg abes.

tiket airasia mahal sgt smpai

rm1600. tak mampu.

if klm tu juz rm800 je.

so, xjd balik..

xpe la..

bkorban..

tuhan maha mngetahui..

aku mmg sgt rindu super

kt mama abah.

nk balik peluk cium je.

tp..

xpelah,,

insyaallah februari nnt..

time my birthday plak tu cuti..hehe..

ok lah. nk tido dah.

esok nk g awal sbb

dah byk hari xg mr.

hehe.

exam ari isnin.

alhamdulillah dpt dr baik.

mudah2han lulus. kalo

ada rezki dpt a..

hehe

so, minggu ni dah free sbnarnye.

nk stdy utk radio la.

sbb takut sgt dgn radio.huhu

nite.. :)

hola..

2011-11-17T11:36:00.000-08:00

salam.. lama xtulis blog ni.

xde smangat nk tulis.
haa.. ni ade cite psal smlm.

smlm ptembungan Msia VS Indo
bola utk kelayakan semifinal.

Alhamdulillah Msia menang.

kita di caci mcm2..
tyme lagu Negaraku kita
kita di hina.
tp Alhamdulillah kita menang.
Allah Maha Adil.

kan?

btw, arini Breaking Dawn.

aku rindu nk tgk ngan Mudd.
dulu g tgk ngan Mudd Eclipsed.
ingat lagi tyme kt KKN..

kami xdpt tgk..
tp balik tu tros tgk..
hampir nk g tasik malaya dr tmpat
KKN sbb nk tgk..

aku siyes rindu mudd..

bes sgt time tu tgk ngan ainul jugak.

ainul yg cite sume..

tp, skang sume dah lain..

nak senyum pon xleh.

aku dah cuba.
but, failed.

sbb aku dah lukakan hati dia
dgn sgt dalam.

arini g tgk ngan matya kt jatinangor.

sbb 1 indonesia dah tayang,
Malaysia je lambat.
hehe..
Malaysia tayang 24nov.
hehe..

excited sgt nk tgk..

btw, skang kt anes.
mmg sgt santai.
hehe..
relax je keje..
hehe..

tu yg bleh g jatinangor ni..

ni nk g servis moto..
sbb nk bjalan jauh.
haha,.,,
kalo x, jgn harap nk servis.
hahaha

doakn aku slamat smpai..

okk.. daaa daa..
nak mandi!

do you know?

2011-10-17T12:29:00.000-07:00

salam..

lama xtulis. bukan sebab sibuk.

tapi malas.

banyak benda yang nak dikongsi.

minggu ni minggu terakhir kt bedah.

sgt sedih nk tnggalkan bedah. but, i'd promise

to myself, i'll jaga if i'm free.

i love being with patient.

i'd seen a lot

of death since i'm in surgery department.

most of it coz of

head trauma.

severe head injury.

here's a lil bit info 4 u guys.

we can classify head injury into 3 :

mild, moderate n severe according to the

gcs (glasgow coma scale)

mild (14-15)

moderate (9-13)

severe (less or equal to 8)

head injury is the common cause of

death in surgery emergency department.

not because of not wearing helmet.

but, it also bcoz of the way

people ride or drive.

they often rush to go somewhere.

slalunye,

patient yg datang dgn head injury ni

sgt berbau.

sbb bau darah.

dari mulut, dr tlinga,

kepala.

but, as a future doc,

kene tahan la. if xtahan,

pakai mask la..

tp, 1 masalah kt hasan sadikin ni

adalah, facilities.

byk patient mati sbb nk tnggu operation room.

nk tnggu doc yg byk patient lain.

alat ventilator yg

ade 1 or dua.

so, koas tpaksa ambu (tekan2 belon keras utk

assist respiration)

penat sgt if kene ambu.

sometimes, we pray supaya patient cpat2

mati. :(

jgn ikut pbuatan ni.sgt dosa.

n i promised i never fo it

again.

i have a lot of experience in surgery

department.

1 patient, he's having moderate head

injury.

i got infos that he's drunk n ride motorcycle.

he's only 16.

i treat him with my heart coz

i'm so sad bcoz he's too young to die.

i need his urine for urinalysis to make sure that

he's not having urogenital injury.

but, he can't urinate. so,

i need to set catheter.

when i take off his pants

i'm quite shock coz he's having

a small penis.

i'm not sure it is normal or

not. but, i ask my fren.

when we try to find the meatus,

we found out that he is

hypospadia patient (having a proximal

meatus)

that's why he's having small penis.

bcoz he have chordae which is a fibrous tissue

connect his glan penis and his shaft.

it's quite difficult to enter the catheter,

but, we succeed. :)

n we got all his urine out n

we take the sample from the urine for

urinalysis.

he maybe having bladder injury coz he have microscopic

hematuria.

but, i don't know the real diagnosis

coz i finish my shift that day.

today i promise to visit him at 4th floor i guess.

coz he is orthopaedic patient.

i hope he's alright.

and get well fast.

i help him with my heart.

he's father don't have money.

but, he tried to reach his wife to

try to find money to

treat his son.

i gave my phone for him to call his

wife.

after all i did to his son,

he whispered to my ear

"doc, smoga tuhan membalas

jasa baik doc. doc orang yang baik"

alhamdulillah. i almost cried when i

heard his whispered.

i said

"insyaallah pak.. saya doakan

anak bapak cepat sembuh dan

kluarga bapak dirahmati allah."

n b4 that happen,

when his son woke up,

he's asking to meet his father.

then he said

"bapak..aku minta

maaf. aku udah mengecewakan

bapak sama ibu"

suddenly, my tears come down.

i hope he's really mean it n

change.

i pray for their happiness.

being a young doctor really

give me lessons.

i need to appreciate life.

i need to respects people.

i hope all future doctors out there will

treat their patient

with our heart

to make sure patient

will get our services fully and also

our love that may make

them happy.

amin.

if we do something right,

we'll get benifit.

if not today. maybe tomorrow.

insyaallah..

kisah.

2011-09-26T07:35:00.000-07:00

salam..

dah 5minggu kt bedah.

dah setel

bedah plastik,

bedah digestif,

bedah orthopedik,

bedah saraf,

dan bedah onkologi..

skarang tgh bedah urologi.

bes jugak..

aku dah 10kali jaga for myself

plus 5..

spnjang jaga,

mcm2 experience yg aku dpt..

kisah 1,

adik tiara dtg dari pkul 10.30pagi.

doc ckp die severe dehydration,

then, doc suh pegi tnggu luar n bg

anak minum air.

stahu aku,

severe dehydration dah xde nafsu nk minum.

n patut IV trus.

tp, haihh.. siapalah kami nk tegur.

then, pkul 12 tghari dtg lg..

ibu die ckp tiara dah xbmaya..

doc bedah anak xdtg lg..

so, tnggu lg..

smpai pkul 3 ptg..

baru lah doc bedah anak suh buh IV.

tyme perawat nk msukkan IV (koas xcapable utk IV for paed)

tiara seizure...

then, msukkan diazepam.

tiba2 tiara dah tak bernafas (apnea)

doc baru nk cepat2.

kelam kabut.

resuscitate.

cpr.

tiara still xbnafas.

nadi masih ada.

tiba2 nadi dah xde.

juz bantuan CPR.

pukul 4 lebih,

tiara meninggal.

ibu tiara meraung.

menjerit.

doc muka xbsalah.

ayah tiara menangis.

dan aku yang lemah ni pon

termenangis.

xnk mnangis sbb doc xleh tunjuk

simpati but empathy.

tp, aku lemah.

kalau lah di treat dari awal...

KALAU.

ini urusan Allah.

kita juz mampu ambil pengajaran..

jangan lah kalau pasien tu org susah,

kita xlayan.

kita sombong.

layan equally.

nyawa tu bukan benda main2.

Allah yang bagi.

jangan permain nikmat Allah..

aku harap aku xjadi doctor yg mcm tu.

amin.

kisah II.

bapak datang emergency sbb jatuh dari jurang stinggi 3meter.

terhentak kepala.

ni pasien loga.

aku juz tolong2.

bapak ni sedar.

sgt bagus.

bapak ni perawat kt pukesmas kt

tasik.

bapak tu jatuh pukul 6pagi jumaat.

pukul 2ptg jumaat bru dtg emergency sbb xde ambulans.

then, pkul 7pagi sabtu baru

aku jaga,

bapak ni tlentang.

sedarkan diri.

tapi, bapak tu dah xdpt rasa apa2 kt tangan n kaki.

bapak tu dah lumpuh.

quadriplegia.

bapak tu ckp "doc, cuba liat tangan bapak"

bapak tu sambil memaksa diri utk gerakkan jari.

begerak sikit.

tapi, tak bererti apa2.

kami hanya mampu meng'iya'kan.

sedih teramat.

doctor ckp, dia ada cervical fracture yang dah

menjepit spinal cord nya dan

dah xleh buat apa2 sbb treatment juz bleh buat dlm masa kurang 8jam slepas kejadian.

tapi pasien ni dah lbih dari 8 jam.

doc ckp pasien ni akan mati.

sbb nerve kt thoracic wall dia dah xfunction.

dia still bnafas pakai diaphragm.

lama2 akan tired smpai lah

dia akn sesak nafas n mati.

bapak tu dipulangkan.

sbb dah xleh nk buat apa2.

kami pon takmampu nak buat apa2.

kami hanya mampu mlihat.

mendoakan.

"ya Allah.. selamatkan lah bapak tu"

aku n loga just keep staring on each of us.

syukur kan kita ada nikmat bleh sihat mcm ni?

terimakasih Allah..

bersyukurlah.

hohooi.. EMA lah pulak.. :) (European Music Awards)

2011-09-19T11:56:00.000-07:00

here are the nominees!!

6nov2011

BEST SONG
Adele – “Rolling In The Deep”
Bruno Mars – “Grenade”
Jennifer Lopez ft Pitbull – “On The Floor”
Katy Perry – “Firework”
Lady Gaga – “Born This Way”

BEST LIVE
Coldplay
Foo Fighters
Katy Perry
Lady Gaga
Red Hot Chili Peppers

BEST POP
Britney Spears
Justin Bieber
Katy Perry
Lady Gaga
Rihanna

BEST NEW
Bruno Mars
Far East Movement
Jessie J
LMFAO
Wiz Khalifa

BEST FEMALE
Adele
Beyoncé
Jennifer Lopez
Katy Perry
Lady Gaga

BEST MALE
Bruno Mars
David Guetta
Eminem
Justin Bieber
Kanye West

BEST HIP HOP
Eminem
Lil Wayne
JAY Z & Kanye West
Pitbull
Snoop Dogg

BEST ROCK
Coldplay
Foo Fighters
Linkin Park
Kings of Leon
Red Hot Chili Peppers

BEST VIDEO
Adele – “Rolling In The Deep”
Beastie Boys – “Make Some Noise”
Beyoncé – “Run The World (Girls)”
Justice – “Civilization”
Lady Gaga – “Born This Way”

BEST ALTERNATIVE
Arcade Fire
Arctic Monkeys
My Chemical Romance
The Strokes
Thirty Seconds To Mars

BEST WORLD STAGE
Arcade Fire
The Black Eyed Peas
Diddy Dirty Money
Enrique Iglesias
Kings of Leon
Linkin Park
My Chemical Romance
Ozzy Osborne
Snoop Dogg
Thirty Seconds To Mars

BEST PUSH
Alexis Jordan
Big Time Rush
Bruno Mars
Far East Movement
Jessie J
Katy B
LMFAO
Neon Trees
Theophilus London
Wiz Khalifa

BIGGEST FANS
Justin Bieber
Lady Gaga
Paramore
Selena Gomez
Thirty Seconds To Mars

MTV UK & IRELAND/ BEST UK & IRELAND ACT
Adele
Coldplay
Florence + The Machine
Jessie J
Kasabian

hidup.

2011-09-10T11:07:00.000-07:00

salam..

dah lame gile xtulis blog.

*bajet*

sgt2 busy sejak masuk ortho ni.

huhu..

alhamdulillah dah abes.

lpas ni nk msuk NC plak.

bedah saraf.

busy jugak. haih. kelas abes 5-6ptg gk..

adeh.

xpe2.. sabo2..

tp best bedah ni. :)

sbb mcm2 bleh buat..

dah jahit.

pasang IV..

amik darah..

cocok ubat,

hehe..

xde mood nk tulis sbanrnye.

dah bosan dgn blog sbnarnye.

sjak msuk koas.

huhu

ok. chow.

skyscraper.

2011-08-12T23:09:00.000-07:00

to all who hates me. :)

i am me.

i do like what it seems to be liked.

i do hate asshole and shenanigan.

i'm not ass-kisser type of person.

importantly, i appreciate those who appreciate me.

Demi Lovato - Skyscraper

Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence, as it's ending, like we never had a chance.
Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

As the smoke clears
I awaken and untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better to watch me while I bleed
All my windows still are broken but I'm standing on my feet
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/d/demi_lovato/skyscraper.html ]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

Go run run run I'm gonna stay right here
Watch you disappear yeah
Go run run run yeah it's a long way down
But I'm closer to the clouds up here

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Ohh
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

formspring.me

2011-08-01T04:45:00.001-07:00

Ask me whatever u want!! hihi.. but, please don't ask medic Q! http://formspring.me/atrash88

mungkin.

2011-07-27T10:36:00.000-07:00

salam..

harini 4th last day aku

kt penang, msia.

lpas ni balik bndung xto dah bile bleh balik.

koas mcm xde cuti je.

rindu lah family tcinta nnT.

:((

cuti kali ni wlaupn

kejap,

tp, sgt best.

sbb dpt buat mcm2.

puas hati.

tp still, sayu rasa hati.

takpuas mkn mskn mama sbb

mama p kantin.

huhu..

tp xpe.

msia mmg sgt bes.

bukan sbb hometown je.

tp smua dah ada.

weather pn xdk la tlalu panas.

awal2 tu rasa la panas gila.

hehe..

btw, my fevret singer buat album BI.

n single tbaru falling in love yg sgt bessss...

hehe..

ni link die..

Siti Nurhaliza - Falling In Love

ini kisah kami.

2011-07-25T10:50:00.001-07:00

salam..

lama xtuleh.. :)

busy hepikan diri kt tanah air ni.

ni best friend aku

skolah teknik aloq staq.

dr form 5. form 4 aku xknai sgt dia.

kmi jd rapat sjak aku jmpa dia

stdy kt bilik beg balik kmpung.

aku xpnh stdy (revision)

utk masa lapang.

aku juz stdy bila nk

exam.

stat bila aku tgk

dia stdy..

aku nk jd rajin.

so, aku pn stdy gila2.

utk spm.

n aku tros rapat ngan dia.

hari2 stdy.

kmi best fren.

dah 6taun aku kwn ngan dia.

mcm2 bnda blaku.

awek dia adalah kwn klas aku.

aku tlg ejas2 gk la

kt depa.

last2 aku pn jatuh hati kt awek dia..

(before depa kapel)

tp bila aku dah tau depa kapel by march 2006,

aku agak xleh trima.

by a year,

baru aku blajar mnerima.

sbb apa?

sbb zuhairi is my best friend.

aku xsnggup musnahkan

psahabatan hnya sbb sorg pompuan.

smpai skang aku best friend ngan zuhairi.

n dia still dgn awek tu jugak.

aku doakn dorg kekal n xde mslh

ape2.

xsabaq nk tnggu depa kawin.

biodata best fren aku ni..

nama pnuh : zuhairi zolkifli

tarikh lahir : 7ogos1988

tu ja la aku tau.

haha.

smlm dia mai penang smata2

nk jmpa aku dari kedah.

dia keja smentara cuti sem 4 bulan.

aku sgt2 hepi dpt jmpa dia.

ya Allah, terimakasih sbb temukan

aku n zuhairi.

yes, he's my true friend.

Snarai Pncalonan VMA!!

2011-07-21T07:34:00.001-07:00

katy perry dpt 8 pncalonan!! arap2 die mnang!! she really deserve it!!

VIDEO OF THE YEAR

?
Adele, "Rolling In The Deep"
Tyler, The Creator, "Yonkers"
Katy Perry, "Firework"
Bruno Mars, "Grenade"
Beastie Boys, "Make Some Noise" BEST FEMALE VIDEO
?
Adele, "Rolling In The Deep"
Katy Perry, "Firework"
Beyonce, "Run The World (Girls)"
Nicki Minaj, "Super Bass"
Lady Gaga, "Born This Way"
BEST MALE VIDEO
?
Cee Lo Green, "F*** You"
Eminem feat. Rihanna, "Love The Way You Lie"
Bruno Mars, "Grenade"
Kanye West feat. Rihanna & Kid Cudi, "All of the Lights"
Justin Bieber, "U Smile" BEST POP VIDEO
?
Adele, "Rolling in the Deep"
Bruno Mars, "Grenade"
Pitbull feat. Ne-Yo, Nayer & Afrojack, "Give Me Everything"
Katy Perry, "Last Friday Night (T.G.I.F.)"
Britney Spears, "Till The World Ends" BEST ART DIRECTION
?
Adele, "Rolling In The Deep"
Katy Perry, "Firework"
Lady Gaga, "Judas"
Kanye West, "Power"
Death Cab For Cutie, "You Are A Tourist"
?
BEST CHOREOGRAPHY
?
Beyonce, "Run The World (Girls)"
Britney Spears, "Till The World Ends"
Lady Gaga, "Judas"
Bruno Mars, "The Lazy Song"
LMFAO feat. Lauren Bennett & GoonRock, "Party Rock Anthem" BEST CHOREOGRAPHY
?
Beyonce, "Run The World (Girls)"
Britney Spears, "Till The World Ends"
Lady Gaga, "Judas"
Bruno Mars, "The Lazy Song"
LMFAO feat. Lauren Bennett & GoonRock, "Party Rock Anthem"
BEST DIRECTION
?
Adele, "Rolling In The Deep"
Beastie Boys, "Make Some Noise"
Katy Perry feat. Kanye West, "E.T."
30 Seconds To Mars, "Hurricane"
Eminem feat. Rihanna, "Love The Way You Lie" ?
BEST SFX (SPECIAL EFFECTS)
?
Manchester Orchestra, "Simple Math"
Katy Perry feat. Kanye West, "E.T."
Kanye West, "Power"
Linkin Park, "Waiting For The End"
Chromeo, "Don't Turn The Lights On"

respect.

2011-07-17T04:07:00.000-07:00

i'm not that kind of

person that always blame others.

i'm not perfect. so do you.

i think there's no need to explain.

i don't lke this feeling.

feeling when i hate someone.

who i am to judge people?

but, please do respect my feeling.

i have nothing against u.

i never talk bad thing bout u.

who i am to not forgive

others..

i'm not an angel.

i hope we can learn from our

mistakes in future.

wassalam.

tak kisah..

2011-07-16T09:11:00.000-07:00

salam nisfu syaaban..

mlm2 nisfu syaaban ni bagi panas

je aku base status fb n tweet ko.

status n tweet ko xde pape

tp sbb aku mnyampah kt ko..

so, jd la xokay..

b4 tis, byk aku dgr

ko buat spekulasi psal aku..

ni bkn aku buat cite..

tp aku mmg dgr ko buat cerita

psal aku.

ko ade ckp aku ni nk rmpas GF org.

aku sabo je dgr.

aku gelak.

sbb benda xbtol.

so, aku ignore je..

tp bile ko sakitkan hati

aku dgn tulis blog yg

mnyakitkan hati

tntang post yg bKAITAN

dgn aku, mmg mnyakitkan.

then, ko ckp xde kne mngena,

aku prasan..

wtf?

pegi mampos la ko.

mnyakitkan hati.

ayat mnusuk.

ko jgn ingt ko innocent.

org bace blog ko

pn bleh sakit hati.

mybe ko nk femeskn blog ko..

sbb tu ko wt post yg bajet

ko tau psal isu smasa..

pegi mampos la.

ko tu buat2 tau.

annoying nak mampos.

siyes mulai post ko tu,

aku mula mmbenci ko.

aku arap xjmpe ko dlm grup

aku koas nnT.

sbb ko org yg tpaling annoying

category pompuan skarang.

ya Allah..

2011-07-13T12:42:00.000-07:00

salam..

kejap lagi judicium II..

takut sgt ya Allah..

moga2 kmi smua lulus utk

msuk clinical year nnT.

xtau pn judicium II

pkul 1ptg..

bru tau ptg td..

tiket flight pkul 3.45ptg..

takto sempat ke x..huhu

ya Allah..

bantulah aku ya Allah..

permudahkanlah urusan kami..

kejap lg nk try g FK mntk

result awal.

xto die trima x alasan aku..huhu

slalu judicium pkul 7 pagi. tetiba dia

tukar. mane nk tau..huhu

ya Allah.. bg lah kami smua

lulus utk msuk koas..

kami mrayu padaMu ya Allah..

takut sgt2..

kwn2 tlg doakn..huhu

trimaksih sgt2..huhu

BERSIH? berjayakah?

2011-07-10T08:34:00.000-07:00

salam..

smlm bersih. hari ni dah kotor.

haha.

aku xmnyokong bersih.

dan xmnyokong government.

aku mnyokong keamanan.

bukan kekacauan mcm anai2 yg mrosakkan

facilities yg ada.

so mmg patut la kene sembur racun (pemedih mata)

aku byk baca psal bersih ni.

8 tuntutan dia bgus.

tp, aku xstuju, sbb bila dah buat,

habes kacau bilau.

tgk la TV.

berhimpit2..

tolak mnolak.

org bodoh mana suka bnda tu?

mybe org yg minat wrna kuning kot.

agak bodoh if anda minat wrna kuning n

anda sokong bersih.

anda bukan bersih.

anda bodoh.

sy neutral.

sbg manusia,

kita mntafsir.

buat apa makcik pakcik tua,

bdak2 kecik dok p

kliling KL melalak reformasi reformasi.

bodohkah anda?

lpas tu polis tangkap budak2

nak marah.

bagus la polis tangkap.

if x tangkap habes kena pijak.

tak payah la nk bhimpun2.

bersih ni xdk point la.

sokong AMBIGA plak tu.

INDIAN???

are u mad??

kata kna ikut pmimpin yg btol.

ni ikut non-muslim???

yg pernah jd lawyer lina joy plak tu!

ko tau ke lina joy tu sape?

takkan xpernah dengar or bace??

lina joy tu muslim nk convert kristian.

pkataan convert tak sesuai disitu.

MURTAD.

nak tukar IC.

ko gile?

haaa.. pikir la.

jangan asal tulis blog,

nak like comment2 org

yg xguna akal.

kite ade fact.

bukan mcm kau.

bodoh.

ikut arus je.

org sokong ko pn nk sokong.

mmg sampah.

mnyampah aku tgk.

zzzz.

kalo xto pape diam.

aku mntafsir.

bace amad shit tu pnye FB.

ah mmg sial.

annoying aku.

mcm tu cara nk sampaikan sumtin?

status aku kt FB smua relevan.

bersih mnyebabkan sampah.

so, salah ke? humanity pn ko xblajo ke?

ko pegi mampos la.

minat wrna kuning tp otak bangang.

aku xsuke cara ko.

ade ke kate org mlalak.

xleh ckp elok2 ke?

bersih ni kotor.

ada rempuhan la.

aku tgk pn takut.

sampai ada yg mati.

salah sapa?

salah org yg mnganjur la.

at least buat proper.

benarkan yg 21tahun ke atas ke.

ni smua umor ko bagi.

bayi 5bulan pn ade.

aku ckp psal government ke?

tak kan?

aku xsentuh psal government.

aku ckp psal humanity.

mmg ko bangang kate kt org yg mnentang mcm tu.

aku mnentang bersih sbb bersih mnyusahkan

orang.

tu je.

tu bukan perjuangan.

tu pembodohan.

menentang malayan union ok gk

sbb kita mnentang british.

ni mnentang bangsa sniri.

WTF?

ko fikir lah bodoh.

hatiku.

2011-07-07T14:06:00.000-07:00

salam..

lame xtulis blog. maafla kpd yg bace.

hehe..

i'm in malaysia rite now.

with my beloved family!!

ni lah prasaan yg xdpt ditandingi.

i love my family.

yes, we are big family!

LITERALLY BIG!

haha.

all of my family members

are big (i hate the word FAT).

except for my father.

he ate a lot..

but, he is so active.

i spend my holiday with

my family most of the time.

juz now, we had outing together.

we went to western food restaurant

coz my sista wanna treat us coz

she got her salary.

then, we went to karaoke,

but sadly, it was fully booked.

so, we went for bowling.

my mum's didn't join.

juz four of us.

the different between

playing with your fren

and playing with ur family is

u didn't have to compete with ur family

bcoz what is the matter

is joy.

i love being around them.

that was our 1st time playing

bowling together and it was awesome.

:))

and i wish and pray rite now is,

i pass the department paper, and

happily enter clinical year.

i really hope coz i don't want

to dissappoint my family.

please Allah.

please make my prayer come true.

amin.

whoever read tis, please pray for

me too and pray for our family happiness..

thx for reading...

manusia.

2011-06-28T08:23:00.000-07:00

salam..

sjak sbtu smpai smlm,

emon dtg bndung.. dia tumpang

tido umah aku..

alhamdulillah. time dia dtg sgt strategic..

tyme aku sgt sunyi.

time tu gk dia dpt det zakat

so, dia keje blnja je ktorg..

huhu..

ase malu gk.

tp die nk sgt.

b4 die balik, ktorg singgah la

kdai jaul baju dkat dgn ciwalk tu,

dekat2 xtrans..

ktorg msuk la satu kdai.

baju dia cntik2..

then, tnya la kdai tu ada x saiz besar..

then, tros die ckp xde.

then, emon pn cari la bju dia

kt kdai tu saiz L paling bsar.

then, emon amik byk helai.

baru mamat kdai tu

layan emon.

if x, dia xlayan pn ktorg.

kuang ajo btol.

then, baru dia kuarkn baju saiz XL.

tadi ckp xdk.

mmg sial.

dia ingt ktorg xmampu nk beli kot.

claka btol.

last2 total emon beli 600k plus

bru dia tau.

mcm besa, emon belikan aku

2helai baju..

tharu sgt..

alhamdulillah, aku rsa

hepi emon dtg.. sgt bes.

hopefully dia dpt dtg nnT..

skang ni musim pndah ke bndung..

aku malas rsa nk pndah..

haishh.. esok dah nk kna stat packing..huhu

siapa tahu.

2011-06-23T09:44:00.000-07:00

salam..

aku bukan keje nk mnyalahkan org.

tp korg cube fikir.

ape aku rase,

stiap kali aku ajak di tolak.

then, org len ajak pegi dgn hepi.

aku ni sape?

bukan kwn ko ke?

aku org tdekat dgn ko.

aku tau aku ni xcaring.

aku xpnh tnye ko sihat ke x.

aku tak pernah bantu ko bile susah.

aku trase sgt.

sbb korg hepi2 dgn org yg aku

tak rapat. musuh.

aku rase mcm dikhianati.

u have rights to be frens to anyone u

want to, but, please respects my feelings.

jangan dengar kata2 org skeliling korg,

tnye diri sniri.

korg ingt x aku?

korg ingt x aku ajak korg slalu g mane2?

sbb ape?

sbb aku nk rapat ngan korg.

sbb ko sgt dekat dgn aku.

n lpas ni kita akn jauh.

aku dah takmarah psal rumah.

dah tak kisah sbb mungkin xdk rezki kita

nk bsama lg.

tp knangan 2 taun, sgt best.

wlaupn mybe ko ase aku xpnting bg ko.

aku mmg xreti nk g teman ko main game.

or ape.

sbb aku bukan kaki game.

tapi aku cube gk nk baik.

kite dinner gk skali kdang2.

aku hormat korg.

aku doa korg sntiasa bhagia bdua.

aku mrh bile org kate sumtin psal korg dua.

tp, korg buat bnde same x kt aku?

tapi aku sdar. org kate,

ape yg kite wt kt org, jgn harap org

lain akn wt bnde same kt kite.

aku bukan jenis suke buang.

2tahun kot.

aku bukan xde prasaan.

cuma, korg fikir,

korg pernah terfikir nk luang masa dgn aku?

aku kwn korg gk.

best fren korg skang,

mase korg susah, dorg ade?

dorg yg mnentang korg dulu.

sape yg bdiri utk korg?

sbb korg aku gado ngan bestfren korg.

aku bukan nk ungkit.

tapi aku sakit.

ape2 pn.

kalo korg mrh dgn apeyg

aku timbulkan,

korg fikir,

ape korg rase bile kwn baik

korg sblum ni xbaik ngan someone,

tetiba korg bmusuh ngan sumone tu,

kwn baik korg baik ngan sumone tu.

msT la akn rase dkhianati sbb

sblum ni bile aku ajak g mane2

nk luang mase bsama korg

slalu tolak.

cube kire brapa kali kite pnh

kuar bsama?

tak pernah.

brapa hari je lagi kite nk

bsama.

then, bende ni muncul.

bukan aku sngaja munculkan.

TAPI HATI TAK BOLEH DIPAKSA.

aku takmampu lagi berdiam..

sakit sgt rasa hati.

aku marah sgt.

aku mntk maaf sbb marah.

sharusnya aku ckp elok2.

tp aku manusia lemah.

kalau korg btol2 nk kwn ngan aku,

aku tnggu.

aku bukan pinta kemaafan dr korg.

tp aku pinta hati tulus ikhlas korg

nk bkwn ngan aku.

sbb aku ikhlas kwn ngan korg.

if aku ikut dorg dr dlu,

dah lama aku tnggalkan korg.

bukan sbb tnggal sbumbung.

tp sbb aku ase ape yg btul n ape yg slh.

aku xmcm org2 bodoh yg nk mnghukum

bnde yg dorg xde hak nk hukum.

korg fikir lah knapa aku rase

dkhianati.

cuba letak diri korg kt tmpat aku.

skian. dari hati yg ditusuk n mnusuk.

oh thesis. :(

2011-06-01T11:01:00.000-07:00

thesis ni bikin gue pusing. :(

dah setel 4 draft anto.

tnggal 1 lg doc ade kt oversea plak..

kne tnggu 6june bru bleh anto..

sedih la mcmni.

slide alhamdulillah dah siap.

baru nk tnjuk kt doc firman.

hopefully dia suka.

huhu..

takut lg kene mrh n tengking2.

hopefully sy lulus thesis.

i tried my best.

sgt2 takut.

9th june, Khamis, 1st session, room 5.

tlg doakn sy.. cuak!

I'm dying.. :(

2011-05-27T04:22:00.000-07:00

salam..

1st time tulis pkai BB sbb tenet smart

yg bangang tukar plan xckp!

grrr.

dah sminggu asthma.

tp harini paling dahsat.

dpt kombo skaligus..

asthma plus demam n batuk.

dt pagi td smpai skang.

penat rasanya.

dah g klinik.

tp xdk effect.

die ckp kalo sesak lg g klinik..

die bg nebulized 02..

tp xlarat la.. nk bjalan pn penat. :(

ya Allah. aku xtahan nk trima

pnyakit ni..

sembuhkan lah aku.

siyesly, rase mcm nk mati dah.

sbb sesak ni mnyebabkkan

aku xleh nk wt ape2.. :(

tlg doakn sy yer..huhu

syukur bukan hanya waktu bahagia.

2011-05-25T11:36:00.000-07:00

salam.

alhamdulillah.

mula2 tyme aku dpt soca 70

je kes diarrhea, aku xbsyukur.

langsung.

aku kcewa.

rase xpuas hati.

lpas tu aku duduk,

aku fikir,

Allah bg smua ni sbb

ada hikmah.

mungkin sbb aku byk

wt dosa kt org.

wt salah.

mnyakitkan hati org.

jadi, aku bsyukur.

aku wajib bsyukur.

sbb bila aku tgh susah,

aku bsyukur.

bila aku belum soca,

aku mrayu,

aku mintak doa kt Dia.

mintak mnangis2 nk lulus

soca.

tp dah lulus,

dpt B pn taknak bsyukur plak tu.

alhamdulillah, dlm 2jam

lpas soca tu aku bsyukur.

trus aku bsyukur sbb Allah

xbg aku failed.

aku still bnasib baik.

ada org yg stdy gile2 pn

failed.

sedih kan?

aku sgt2 sedih bile org yg aku

tau mampu dpt result yg tbaik failed.

tp tu lah takdir.

Allah dah tentukan..

kite hnya mampu bsyukur.

itulah tugas seorg hambaNya.

alhamdulillah.

tadi osce aku bjaya lulus suma

stesen.

berkat doa mama abah.

kwn2.

n usaha yg aku buat sejak jumaat bsama

grup stdy osce,

izwan, mamb n tapa.

alhamdulillah.

dorg pn failed skit2 je.

tu berkat sharing2.

aku sgt2 bsyukur.

aku tak sangka aku lulus smua.

tapi, kalini OSCE yang paling

aku puas hati sbb bg aku,

aku sgt2 fully prepared.

hari jumaat sbtu n ahad ktorg wt stdy grup

smpai abes smua. ahad mlm stat tgk video.

then, isnin tghari tgk video lg.

then, mlm stat dah ulang baca osce lagi.

selasa baca smpai petang.

malam baca history taking bg habis.

aku xleh hafal.

aku juz bayangkan sign n symptom utk stiap HT je.

alhamdulillah kluar HT yg aku bleh nk wt.

bsyukur sgt.

tp xleh nk rehat lama.

weekend ni dah nk kene stat bace

thesis.

baca A-Z sbb aku takut

dgn sidang.

sgt takut.

aku nk naik 5th year dgn senang.

tp sgt2 susah medic ni.

soca, osce, mde, department.

smua membebankan.

department dah failed 1.

parasitology.

utk 4th year xto la ape yg btambah.

takut pharmaco.

ya Allah.. bantulah hambamu.

utk smua kwn2.

trimakasih atas doa.

aku sgt2 bsyukur.

alhamdulillah.

~down.

2011-05-16T12:04:00.000-07:00

ya Allah skarang 2am.

kurang 24jam nk soca.

tp kali ni aku rase sgt2

unprepared.

sgt2.

takut.

aku xnk failed.

smua org xnk failed.

aku xnk kes gus.

aku lemah gus.

ya Allah.

bantulah aku.

aku lemah.

aku takut.

tp aku bukan pngecut.

aku mencuba.

mncuba.

berusaha smpai slesai.

goodluck utk smua.

yg baca post ni n blog aku,

tlg doakn.

kalo dpt A,

aku nk update blog.

hehe.

doakn tau.

wsslm..

speechless.

2011-05-14T22:58:00.000-07:00

ok. saya dah nk pengsannnn.. :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

HAHAHA

2011-05-11T04:01:00.000-07:00

ape la mslh ko.

aku like tp ko comment

dlu..

xkuar pn komen ko.

bile aku enter bru kuar komen ko.

nk wt mcmane.

bkn aku nk komen bile ko komen pn.

haish..

klakar btol smpai delete.

kot ye pn xsuke xpyh la smpai nk delete2..

aku wish bday ko,

ko xbls, aku xksah pn.

tak rase malu pn.

sbb aku mmg nk wish.

lain la org suruh.

ikut suka hati kau lah.

aku bukan menagih kasih.

aku juz xnk pekung dgn

rase benci ni.

dah cukup dah membenci.

penat.

aku dah give up.

ko xslesa sbb aku unblock ko.

ok.. kejap lagi aku block. senang skit.

xnk bg ko rase xslesa.

senang. ko xdpt tgk aku,

aku xdpt tgk ko.

goodluck with ur life bro!

enjoyy!!!

untuk kamu seorang. :(

2011-05-10T11:57:00.000-07:00

Talking to the moon - Bruno Mars

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

Chorus:

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know

Cause when the
sun goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back

Chorus:
At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

Ahh Ahh,
Ahh Ahh,

Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you

In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away

Today My Life Begins - Bruno Mars

2011-05-08T09:43:00.000-07:00

i've been working hard so long

seems like pain has been my only friend

my fragile heart's been done so wrong

i wondered if i'd ever heal again

ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same

all around me i can feel a change (ohh)

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me

leave the past behind me, today my life begins

a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking

i know i can make it, today my life begins

yesterday has come and gone

and i've learn how to leave it where it is

and i see that i was wrong

for ever doubting i could win

ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same

all around me i can feel a change (ohh)

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me

leave the past behind me, today my life begins

a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking

i know i can make it, today my life begins

life's to short to have regrets

so i'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget

only have one life to live

so you better make the best of it

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me

leave the past behind me, today my life begins

a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking

i know i can make it, today my life begins

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me

leave the past behind me, today my life begins

a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking

i know i can make it, today my life begins

today my life begins...

~exhausted.

2011-05-08T08:45:00.000-07:00

salam..

tenaga dah abes utk thesis.

so, mcmane nk stdy utk soca?

huhu.. mmg over..

tp hakikatnye mmg sgt2 penat..

siyes

malas gile nk stdy.

haish.

soca haram kes ape pn xbace lg..

haishh..

mcmane ni?

31 kes kottt..

dpt ke aku stdy? haishhh

ya Allah.. cuaknye..

tlg doakn sy yer..

takutt..

thesis pn bmasalah.

cuak.

dah tau confirm xdpt A.

but, at least lulus pn

jadi la.. huhu

takut..

tp tido makin byk.

haishhh..

hopefully dpt cover utk akn dtg.

cuak.

dah la phop failed.

bhp pn failed.

urghhh.

stress pdahal kuar pastyear jeee..

hishhh

ntah laaaa... geram ase.

xkn la smpai failed! pdahal pastyear same je.

eeee.. sakit hati huh!

~kenang daku dlm doamu.. :((

2011-05-01T01:33:00.000-07:00

salam..

ari sbtu lpas 30april

3 pagi, faiz best friend aku dah

balik msia.

aritu cami.. ni faiz plak.

ya Allah..

btmbah tmbah sedih.

menangis lg.

ye, sy fragile.

matya ckp manja.

ciss..

nk wt mcmane

sy syg sgt kt faiz.

die slalu tlg sy.

slalu nk dgr mslh sy wlaupn

sy sniri bmasalah.

die bg knangan yg terindah kt

sy.

ya Allah.

sy sgt rindukan die skang.

:(((

sgt2..

die sntiasa bg support kt saya..

rahasia ke..

seketika ke..

ape2 je la..

sume die bg support..

bg pndapat..

die baik sgt.

die ade x factor.

sy xpnh jmpe kwn mcm die yg baik.

yg pmurah..

yg pnyayang..

sy susah die tlg..

die support thesis sy..

die tlg sy utk thesis.

sy pnh nangis kt die

sbb thesis..

die tlg sy..

teman sy siapkn thesis..

die sgt2 concern psal sy..

die kwn sy sgt sy pcaya..

bile sy dah kene tnggal dgn kwn2

sy, dikhianati, difitnah,

die org ptama yg ade sblah sy..

tenangkn sy..

die buat sy tau erti psahabatan..

he's evritin.

i love u faiz.

bile ko dah xde sini hati aku

dah kosong.

ko n cami pmberi impak terbesar dlm

idup aku.

ni nk exam ni, aku xto mcmane

aku nk hadapi.

sbb bile aku exam,

ko slalu ada utk aku..

bantu aku utk soca..

utk ape2 je la..

:((

aku redha dgn ape yg blaku,.

tp ni bukan ppisahan..

tp ni pmulaan.

aku janji akn jumpe korg

kt ukm nnT,..

tnggu aku tau..

satu je pesan aku, jangan lupekan aku pls..

~i'll sail the world.. to find you..

2011-04-28T15:38:00.000-07:00

Salam..

separuh jiwaku pergi..

tinggal sparuh lg..

my best friend,

Syahmi Khalid dah balik smlm 9am.

skang dah hampir 24hr sy xjmpe die.

kalo die kt sni hari2 wajib jumpa.

yer, sy syg die.

sy btol2 knal die march lepas.

kejap je kan?

bukan march 2010.

tp march 2011.

kejapppp sggttt..

xsmpai 2bulan.

tp mcm dah 2dekad sy knal die.

ktrg sgt2 masuk.

sgt2 ada chemistry.

sy dah rindu die.

die tmpat sy mngadu.

die tmpat sy mluah.

die lah yg slalu bg sy snyum.

die slalu teman sy.

teman sy mkn.

teman sy g checo.

teman sy wt thesis.

bahkn tlg sy wt thesis.

bile sy down, die naikkan smangat.

sy rindu die.

sy xde kwn mcm die.

die original.

die xhipokrit.

ape yg die xsuke die ckp

wlaupn sakit kengkadang

nk trima. tp tu lah cami.

sy accept die mcmane pn die.

sbb die kwn sy.

die bg sy byk memori.

die teman sy stdy gk.

ni nak sooca die xde msT sgt bagi

kesan kt sy sbb tyme die sooca sy

ada.. T_T

sgt2 tkilan.

inilah idup..

stiap ptemuan ada perpisahan.

tp sy n dia bukan suatu ppisahan.

tp penangguhan.

hehe. kejap je.

abes sy blaja kt sni,

sy nk jumpe die n faiz.

ktorg tetap kwn smpai bile2.

faiz balik esok 3am. nnT sy nk wt

post utk die plak..

sy syg kwn2 sy.

if die appreciate sy,

sy bjuta-juta lemon appreciate die.

take care syahmi.

smoga sihat2 slalu n murah rezki.

smoga bjaya dlm idup.

smoga tcapai cita2..

smoga hidup sntiasa bseri-seri.

jgn tnggal solat..

ingt slalu org yg tsayang..

~terfikir.

2011-04-15T06:11:00.000-07:00

oh. ok.

aku tfikir tak bererti aku ingt ko.

aku juz tkenang.

kdang2 ase lawak bile fikir.

dulu pnh jd best friend yg serasi yg

msing2 membenci bende yg sama.

orang yang sama.

tapi, dgn skelip mata,

best friend dah jadi best enemy.

n ada diantara kita yg baik plak

dgn org yg dbenci bsama2 ex-best friend.

itulah kawan.

dun ever trust ur friend.

sbb, hnya org ttentu je kite bleh

pcaya.

kwn yg baik tak memfitnah.

tak berpaling tadah.

tak mnceritakan aib kwn sniri kt org lain

even ex-kawan.

sjak dari pristiwa ni,

aku dah xpnh pcayakan kwn.

sapa2.

pernah baik atau apa,

bagi aku semua sama.

depan je nampak baik,

belakang kite, haram prangai mcm sial.

who knows kan?

so, kene la bjaga2.

jgn hipokrit.

kalo tak suke org tu, juz ckp xsuke.

aku xsuke jilat bontot org

if xsuke. sbb tu aku dah kurang

kwn. but, ade kwn ckp,

xsmstinya ada kwn byk bahagia.

n bagi aku alhamdulillah,

cukuplah byk ni kwn yg ade.

kalo byk2 pn tp,

blakon depan kite wt ape.

kan?

so, aku tak kisah lah

brape org kwn pn.

yg pnting hidup kite

bahagia.

buat ape jadi best friend kalo

tau outcome die akn jadi best enemy kan?

tapi nk buat mcmane,

kwn2 sekeliling pn mcm sial.

lagi suke tgk bile org gado.

its been almost 6month.

alhamdulillah aku dah totally lupa.

dulu kalo aku tgk muke, aku sakit.

especially bile dlm tutor.

tp skang dah x.

aku membenci.

dulu tak.

tp sebab satu event yg

dicreate tu, aku tros benci.

eh, jangan ingat aku ungkit kisah lama,

juz tfikir.

nak exam2 ni mmg byk tfikir.

doa org teraniaya termakbul kan?

aku orang teraniaya kan?

hehe..

aku doakan yang terbaik

utk org yang pernah menganiaya aku,

mengabaikan aku,

menyakitkan ati aku,

mengkhianati aku.

'TERBAIK'

aku maafkan.

tapi, mungkin skadar di

pinggir bibir.

di hati siapa yang tahu?

slagi ada nyawa,

selagi itulah aku kan terus

menghukum.

salahmu tetap salahmu.

salahku tetap salahku.

sepi tanpa kata.

2011-04-12T08:03:00.000-07:00

salam..

lg 16hari dorg dah nk balik.

dan lg 16ari lagi idup aku bakal kosong.

sedih.

sayu.

pilu.

tp idup kne teruskn.

especially bile thesis xsiap2 ag.

kene siapkan.

b4 end of this month.

takut.

dah 4 hari sakit perut.

mula2 kt epigastric.

skang dah jd kt right lower quadrant.

tadi dua kali muntah2.

makan, sumtimes ada slera.

especially bila sakit je lapar.

tp tgh makan dah xde slera.

aku suka bile xde slera.

tp xsuke bile sakit.

nk wt keje pn susah.

dan tyme2 sakit mcm ni la rase

sunyi.

xde org nk tman g klinik.

esok lah pgi lpas klas.

xnk mnyusahkan org.

dah byk mnyusahkan org.

bila sakit gk jd homesick.

rindu kt family tcinta.

xsabo nk balik jun ni..

huhu..

n tadi gk dpt brita yg

mngejutkan.

smoga smuanya baik2 saja.

smoga smuanya selamat.

dugaan dkat2 nk exam ni mmg

sgt2 berat.

sgt2 mmbebankan.

tp kne la trima dgn hati tbuka.

aku sgt fragile.

bile tringat skit je dah mngalir airmata ni..

loser btol.

tp, alhamdulillah bile

bace quran, tenang skit.

bile kol mama,

reda skit..

alhamdulillah, aku punya

nikmat Islam.

kwn2, same2 la doa kjayaan

kite mnempuh 4th year ni..

sikit lagi dah nk abes.

arap2 smuanya dpt naik tahun.

aminn.. :)

Takkan Pernah..

2011-04-09T17:22:00.000-07:00

Salam..

utk yg sape2 yg bminat nk tgk

music video yg ktorg buat sempena

filem pendek RAHASIA

yang telah memenangi Filem Pendek Terbaik

MAISEN 2011,

anda boleh lihat disini..

Takkan Pernah - OST RAHASIA (Malay version of Wouldn't Change A Thing)

lagu ini adalah hasil nyanyian

Uzair dan Ecah.

Lagu asal,

Wouldn't Change A Thing nyanyian

Joe Jonas dan Demi Lovato.

~selamat hari lahir mama..

2011-04-09T14:08:00.001-07:00

salam..

hari ni hari mama..

atrash rindu sgt kt mama.

harini hari ulang tahun mama dilahirkan..

10 april 1965..

dah 46 tahun umoq mama

ataih harap mama sihat2 slalu..

asthma mama xbtmbah teruk.

gula darah mama bkurang.

darah tnggi mama dah reda.

atrash xleh tgk mama sakit.

sbb atrash pn sakit.

atrash rindu mama.

:((

sgt2 rndu.

kalo mama ada boleh atrash peluk cium mama.

atrash sgt2 syg mama..

:((

atrash tau, atrash byk susahkan mama.

tp mama sntiasa tlg atrash.

doakn atrash.

kalo atrash nk exam,

mama xjemu2 doakn atrash.

atrash xsabaq nk keja.

nk support mama abah.

nk bwk mama abah p mekah.

nk beli rumah besaq kt mama abah.

nk beli restoren kt mama abah..

insyaALLAH mama..

kalo bjaya atrash buat semua utk mama..

:)))

Just A Dream - Nelly (Lyric)

2011-03-24T11:03:00.000-07:00

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement.
Number one spot and now she found her a replacement.
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair.

My lover, my life. My shorty, my wife.
She left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn.
And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby.

Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

~ delete & block. :)

2011-03-15T00:47:00.000-07:00

delete & block.

simple kan?

i just deleted n blocked a bitch

from my FB account.

oh, i really hate her.

smoga dia mati dgn sengsara.

dasar sial.

~GUS dah abes!!

2011-03-12T07:12:00.000-08:00

Salam..

lame xtulis post.

group gus da abes!

sgt sedih sbb sy syg group ni.

tp, mkn2 last tutor sgt bes!!

sy buat chicken wings.

n faisal ckp sgt sedap.

sy tharu.

exam monday ni.

tp sgt2 xprepare bbanding GIS.

xpe la.

asalkn lulus dah la.

xcmerlang pn xpe.

sbb sgt2 malas.

btw, sy dah ade 3 anak.

Damon, Alice n yg tbaru Emily.

sume comel2..

nnT sy upload gambo.,

:))

nk mnega lg utk karnival sukan ni.

nk mnega mee kari lg dsbbkn

byk gile pmintaan.

:))

smoga laku.. amin!!

tlg doakn sy exam mnggu dpan!!

:))

~Mee Kariiii Penanngggggggg...

2011-03-08T02:47:00.000-08:00

salam..

woot3..

arini aku jual mee kari smpena LED

BAIK, KUBI...

alhamdulillah..

dlm masa sejam abes.

hehe..

dah la bukak gerai 30min lbih awal. huhu..

bes sgtttttttttttttttttttttt...

untung alhamdulillah.

mengembirakan.

haaa.. utk sape2 yg nk resepi

ni sy bagi. sgt2 simple!!

:))

Utk 4org mkn.

Mee (beli kt ibu sukawening pn xpe) - 1/2 paket.

Serbuk Kari 2paket kecik.

Santan 1 kotak kecik.

Bawang bombay 2biji besar

Bawang putih 2 labu

Halia 2 biji ibu jari

Serai 4batang.

ayam 1/2 ekor potong 24. (biar kecik)

Daun Limau Purut 10helai.

Garam

Gula

Minyak 1 cawan.

Buah pelaga (kapulaga kt sini.xde pn xpe) 4biji

bunga cengkih 4biji

bunga lawang 2biji

(kayu manis TAK PAYAH letak)

Cara2 :

mula2 blend bwg bombay, bwg putih n halia skali.

then, buh mnyak dlm kuali.

(mnyak banyak sbb nk masak rempah tu)

then, msukkan buah pelaga, cengkih n lawang td.

dah naik bau, msukkan bahan2 yg dblend td.

kacau smpai masak kekuningan.

if kurang mnyak tmbah je.

dah agak masak n bau die naik,

msukkan serbuk kari (dlm msa yg sma prepare 1/2 cawan air)

msukkan air td. kacau.(air utk elak hangit) api jgn kuat sgt.

tnggu smpai naik mnyak.

kalo xnaik mnyak, means, mnyak kurang.

so, tmbah je mnyak.

kacau n kacau lg smpai btol2 dah naik mnyak

(estimate masa 10min after msukkan serbuk kari)

jgn brenti kacau takut hangit.

then, msukkan santan.

tmbah air 1cawan.

then, kacau dlm 5min,

msukkan serai yg dketuk tadi.

kacau n kacau.

msukkan air dlm 2botol aqua kecik tu.

kacau n kacau.

msukkan ayam.

msukkan garam gula secukup rasa,

msukkan daun limau.

SIAP!!!

utk sambal pulak.

bahan2 :

cili kering dlm segenggam.

tomato sos.

garam

gula

mnyak 1/2 cawan

cara2 :

rebus cili kering.

then, blend.

panaskan minyak,

msukkan cili tadi,

masak lama2.

biar ilang rase pedas n pahit.

dlm 10min after that,

msukkan sos tomat dlm 5sudu besar.

then, kacau n kacau.

biar lama dlm 15min.

kalo kering, msukkan air skit. jgn byk sgt nnT cair.

then, msukkan garam gula scukup rasa. :)

ok!!! siap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hehehehe...

~bangang.

2011-03-04T08:06:00.000-08:00

kalo xcucuk sarang tbuan,

xkn aku nk mroyan.

kalo ko xwt crita.

ko xreka gosip bodoh ko,

aku xkn ada mslh ngan sapa2.

tapi, ko n ko mmg sial,

saje nk bangkit isu

utk nk tgk aku gado ngan

org len.

mybe cita2 ko nk tgk

aku gado ngan sume org.

jgn ingt arini aku xsound ko,

aku cool.

aku tnggu mase je nk sembur ko n ko.

ade mase, mmg korg akn kene

smbur.

aku mmg siyes benci gile korg.

aku akn bgtau sume org ape yg ko

n ko wt kt aku.

aku tau aku teraniaya dgn manifesto celake

ko n ko.

ko mmg sampah.

siyes sampah yg busuk.

aku pnh ckp kt ko,

aku snang nk maafkn,

tp aku xkn lupakn.

aku akn ingt smpai mati.

nnT kalo ko or kturunan ko

dtg brubat ngan aku,

aku nk sumbat catheter berduri kt

alat sulit ko.

huh.

mmg geram gile kt ko.

kali ni aku xkn maafkn.

ko dah sakitkn ati aku

sjak 2nd year lg.

tp, kali ni yg paling aku sakit.

ko rampas hak aku.

ko mmg sial.

tp, aku dah ok skang.

aku nk tgk ko tsungkur plak.

aku doakn ko tsungkur.

n aku akn ktawa kt dpan muke ko.

aku nk tgk smpai mane

gerakan sial ko tu.

aku ingt ko different.

tp same je dgn musuh aku yg len.

tp, lagi trok. lg sial.

n nnT ko jgn nk cari aku.

ko mlutut cium kaki aku pn

aku xkn trima ko.

aku tau idup ko xde mslh skang.

ko tnggu lah.

Allah Maha Adil.

aku xpndai agama, tp aku

tau dlm idup ni kalo xde balasan,

hidup kt sane nnT tnggu lah ko.

ni post trakhir aku mnyumpah ko.

lpas ni aku xkn wt ape2 slagi

ko xcari mslh ngan aku.

kalo ko still cari mslh ngan aku,

aku akn sembur.

aku jnji akn wt idup ko

miserable mcmane ko wt idup aku

miserable.

akhir kata,

FUCK YOU AND YOU!

FITNAH

2011-03-03T08:42:00.000-08:00

hoi musuh aku,

tau la ko benci aku pn.

tak payah la nk fitnah2.

bodoh la.

bangang.

fitnah aku n org yg aku rapat plak tu.

nk musnah kn hbungan housemate kami ke?

bangang!

ok, bace post aku sblum ni..

"i care for you.

i like you.

but, i think, it became awkward

when i tell you.

i'm so sorry to let you know my feelings.

i'll wait till forever.

but please, let me care for you

as long as you want me to..

i need you.

thanks."

bile mase aku bgtau prasaan aku kt die?

kapla hotak ko.

kalo aku bgtau die isi hati aku,

pegi la tnye die ade ke tak.

BANGANG!

post aku ni utk org len la!!

salah ke aku dah jatuh hati?

tolonggggggg laaa nk jatuh hati ngan org yg dah

bpunya!

ingt aku horny sgt ke?

oh, xsangke dlu ko jd bestfren aku,

skang ko jd pnyebar fitnah plak?

ko nk tgk aku jatuh kn?

aku ingt ko bukan musuh nyata aku.

tp tnyata ko mmg musuh paling

utama aku,

aku xkn tkejut kalo

after tis sume rahsia aku ko cite

kt sume org.

ingtkn aku dah kenal ko dlu,

rupe2 nye aku salah.

ko lg dahsat dari org yg aku benci.

ko snggup fitnah org yg pnh

ko baik dlu.

ko nk tgk aku gadoh ngan housemate aku.

nape?

sbb korg nnT nk duduk bandung skali ke?

ko bace sms org len, then,

ko pndai2 interprete..

then, ko bkongsi plak

ngan partner ko yg kononnye

adil n saksama tu,

then, ko bg housemate aku tau,

smpai die xckp ngan aku.

bmusuh ngan aku.

oh, typical malay drama SHIT.

aku mmg xsangke itu ko yg mmfitnah n

mmanipulasi source.

eh, kalo aku nk pompuan,

aku bleh cari. tak payah nk amik org pnye.

aku xthegeh nk org pnye.

cetek jugak pmikiran ko.

ingtkn pandai, bijak.

tapi bodoh.

arap lompat taun je.

ko bleh troskn nk fitnah aku ke,

ape ke, tp ingt,

Allah Maha Adil.

ko tnggu n lihat.

sbb aku xwt ape pn kt ko.

hak aku utk aku sms sape,

n ape..

tp bukan hak ko utk curi2 bace sms

org then, ko interprete n cite kt

sume org.

aku xsngka ko.

mmg sgt2 xsangka.

aku ingt wlaupn ko xckp ngan

aku, tp kite xde mslh.

ngan sume org aku ckp mcm tu.

rupe2nye ko musuh aku.

n bjaya la partner ko sbb

pnh kate hati2 kwn ngan aku,

sbb ko tgk harini ape keadaan kite

skang..

mulai arini, aku dah sedar yg ko mmg musuh aku,

n aku akn mula bmusuh ngan ko.

ko xkn jumpe ate yg dlu.

n btol gk kate org..

dulu ko xramai kwn..

skang ko dah ramai kwn n makin bkepala la ko..

dlu ko ckp ko pilih kwn yg salah.

n ko dah jumpe yg btol.

tapi statement ko slh.

ni statement ko yg btol.

ko pilih kwn yg salah tp dlm ssuatu masa

ko akn patah balik kt kwn yg salah n disitu ko

akn knal diri ko yg sbenar.

aku dah ilang trust aku kt ko.

trust is like a mirror. it can be fixed if it is broke. but

u can still see the crack that MF's reflection.

aku doa ko xkn brubah.

ko kekal dgn kesialan ko.

kekal smpai mati.

aku doakn ko n kwn ko

yg mmfitnah aku rot in hell.

aku doakn kturunan ko sume prangai

mcm sial.

aku doakn ko idup xtenang smpai

mati.

aku mmg dah benci gile kt ko.

ko mmg sial!!!

~born this way..

2011-02-25T08:52:00.000-08:00

yeah, i born this way.

i love myself.

baru 3 org wish.. :)

tp xpe syukur..

sbb dorg mmg btol2 ingt..

kt FB saje buang DOB

sbb xnk org wish.

juz nk org yg btol2 ingt wish..

agak sedih.

mama abah pn xsms lg.. :(

slalu sms malam2..

lupa kot..

tak pn penat..

dah lewat..

penat baru balik kantin..

kwn baik kt msia pn xwish lg..

lg 5 min wktu msia..

mnanti dgn pnuh harapan..

kdang2 kite xmntk celebration.

tp kte mntk ingatan..

ingatan tu la mncerminkan

tnda psahabatan kite..

kalo xingt wt ape kwn kn?

wish taun ni,

smoga Allah lindung mama n abah dari sakit

bncana n musibah.. biar aku je lalui bnda ni..

smoga Allah bukak pintu rezki kt mama aku..

utk aku, aku bdoa spaya Allah bg aku ptunjuk

n hidayah utk trus turut printahNya..

n aku bdoa supaya aku dpt jd org

yg bjimat cermat lpas ni..

thx kt faiz, matya, nabil, cami n muaz

sbb celebrate bday aku mlm ni..

tharu..

;)

kek henfon samsung yg sgt sedap!

hehehe...

nnt nk upload gambo plak. hehe..

td gk faiz n matya blanje karaoke.. hehe..

thx again.. :)

Jar of Hearts - Christinna Perri (covered by Sam Tsui)

2011-02-17T09:58:00.000-08:00

i love this song.

please do read the lyric.

i think its very beautiful.

I know I can't take one more step towards you

Cause all that's waiting is regret

And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore

You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are

Running 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

And learn to live half alive

And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are

Running 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back

You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are

Running 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are

Running 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

Don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Jar of Hearts - Sam Tsui

Gubahanku - Siti Nurhaliza ft. 2By2 Lirik

2011-02-15T07:57:00.000-08:00

Ku tuliskan lagu ini

Ku persembahkan padamu

Walau pun tiada indah

Syair lagu yang ku gubah

Ku ingatkan kepadamu

Akan janjimu padaku

Hanyalah satu pintaku

Jangan kau lupakan daku

Walau apa yang terjadi

Tabahkan hatimu selalu

Jangan sampai kau tergoda

Mulut manis yang berbisa

Setahun kita berpisah

Serindu terasa sudah

Duhai gadis pujaanku

Cintaku hanya padamu

~nicole kidman! huk3

2011-02-14T09:34:00.000-08:00

oit.td tgk grammy awards. tp xsmpat
nk tgk red carpet.
then, tgk2 gambo2 red carpet.
best n worst dress kt red carpet.
guess sape mnang?
nicole kidman!
woot3

i love her outfit!
superb!
elegant.
:)

she got an A+ for
this gorgeous dress.
i'm lovin it. :)